Sunday, August 26, 2007
~.++Heavy Welkin++.~
I can't blog today.
Perhaps I don't have the mood?
Or maybe my mind was blank?
But looking at the night sky,
With shades of red clouds.
As though the moon princess had hid herself,
Somewhere between those red veils.
I felt my head is spinning when I looked all the way up
I could feel myself falling down the cliff
Just like the sky is getting so closed to me
Heavy and it said, "Hug me"
I need to do something
Before this heavy feeling
Is crushing my body....
Saturday, August 25, 2007
~.++Chronos++.~
Sensible?
Or maybe I could see it?
Hear my voices somewhere else.
Anywhere is always empty.
"Almighty Time" in charged by Chronos
Cruelly controlling time to make chaos
Where time is so slow till I suffer from distortion
Where time is too fast till breathing is time wasting
Yet time rewinding is a taboo
In the end,
You managed half of my fate and destiny
Friday, August 24, 2007
~.++Waltzing Curse++.~
A night full of stars
Coldly half moon hanging
Melodious romance
Sending my heart out of its lonely shell
Waltzing with my shadow
In this quiet alley lit up by the shimmering rays from the moon
Music played by a pauper on the street
"Come, dance with me"
Lifted by the gentle wind
Together with the unsweeped rose petals left behind
From the celebration of the victorious war
Dances together with the wind then with me
Lonely shadow was a woman waiting for her love
Lonely man was originally a "she" waiting for death in war
Romantic waltz
Celebrates the lonely anniversary
Yet present wasn't a gown
But a gun for the endless battles
Dive deeply into the sea of love and sorrow
Only awaits to find someone who will be her home someday
Thursday, August 23, 2007
~.++Melted Tears++.~
Darkness closed my eyes
Hence I won't see what's hurt
Tears melt in the darkness
Coldly yet heartwarming
His big hands covering my eyes
Brightness can't creeps in
"These tears aren't for anyone"
He said so...
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
~.++Calling++.~
They betrayed me
That's why they are humans
It's part of them too
I'm immune to being left behind
No doubt this couldn't be the first and the last
Always out casted and I wonder just how different I am
Arrived alone
Depart alone
Stop hugging from my back and said you need to cry
Stop asking me to lend you my shoulders
Then who shall I ask it from
Who will be the next person
Who will be the next to make me shed tears
I'm not walking in one's shadow
If you really can't live without me
Then please...
Call my name
Monday, August 20, 2007
~.++Moribund++.~
My life is messed up by my parents
Yet I have to clean all the mess myself in the very end
What more can I still give
What can I do
What should I say
Nothing
NOTHING
NOTHING ELSE
I'm EMPTY....
Howling in the midnight at 3 a.m
In search of someone
Who's capable to kill me
I'm losing my senses soon
Sunday, August 19, 2007
~.++Lonely Silent++.~
There's only 1 star shining brightly tonight
Gentle breezes
Silent night
A night where every problems arise
At the back of those gentle waves
Might follow with huge and strong waves
Saturday, August 18, 2007
~.++The Extent++.~
DAMN that almighty fellow
Who always sealed my escapes
He, who made me deprived from freedom
And yet....
I hate to lose everything to him
To this extent
It's still none of my concern
Whatever it may be
Just perish....
Friday, August 17, 2007
~.++15 to 00:00++.~
The next atonement date is arriving soon.
15 more days to go.
It's no longer a date for me.
But a date for handling the consequences.
Thursday, August 16, 2007
~.++Bloomed++.~
Peaceful...
Piano Concerto No.20 in C Major, K476: Andante
I know you loved playing that especially during Spring
Sweet and gentle
As if I was lying in the full bloomed garden
Never failed to indulge in reminiscing
Makes me remembered that white dress
Which you said it's looks nice on me
Wished I never grew
Thus,
I might be more carefree than I am now
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
~.++It's Time++.~
If I don't fly now
There won't be anymore chance to escape
I was once taken for granted
Soon that will be the last
From a weak being who need a crutch
To distinguish myself different from others
Leaving this never ending merry-go-round
To a place which accepts me
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
~.++New Blood++.~
Everything about you were in bits and pieces
I just remembered your face a year ago
Never did I expect
I have you all along
Keep me accompany
Till the last sun sets
No other reasons
Just because you shared the same blood as I do
Monday, August 13, 2007
~.++Summer Afterall++.~
I'm tired today.
Ran asked me to rest.
Since when?
I wonder....
Ran-nii will put me to sleep tonight?
It's still summer afterall.
Sunday, August 12, 2007
~.++Summer Festival++.~
The summer festival is starting
Let's watch the fireworks together
That's your promise
I wonder do you still remember?
Maybe I was a little worried
Would you be the same bored person like the others
Or perhaps so, you might be special
Still, I have only you around to close my eyes
My only chance to live longer
Where I search that scent and freedom from
Saturday, August 11, 2007
~.++Loan++.~
The day when my heart hardens
When my senses dies off
As the distortion eats up and spreads throughout my body
I was announced dead
Yet the contradicting part for the urge to live
But the hope to die for the longing freedom
Makes me fear
Fear to die, because there's so many things I need to do
Thus time wasn't enough
Fear to live, because I have been on the same bored path
Thus death might be the key to let me jump out of it
Loan me your back
Don't be stingy please
Just no matter who you're
Lend it to me for awhile
Just few seconds will do
At least let me feel better
Friday, August 10, 2007
~.++"Business"++.~
There's always things that only "family" can end
But to me...
I don't even remember I have one
It doesn't concern me either
But is really a pain in the ass
So just stop mumbling
About what's not true
Thursday, August 09, 2007
~.++Gray Thunderstorm++.~
The loneliness creeps in just because...
You kept mentioning something which I don't know about.
That no longer matters anymore.
It's so quiet today.
The gray snow keeps on falling.
In the midst of a thunderstorm.
"Hush...."
I still can't forget Ran's whispering voice.
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
~.++A Copy++.~
I just don't like you.
No other reasons.
That's all.
If that's the way you welcome me as your family.
Then I rather have you as my dinner.
No doubt sharing the same face as I do.
I just hate the way people so call-ed "family".
Nonetheless, the blood we shared.
I'll be the last one carrying it.
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
~.++Dysfunctional++.~
At least we have something in common.
A dysfunction family.
Who doesn't know how it feels?
Being alone is way to normal.
I'm used to it.
Hush....
Please don't say anything.
Please don't tell me anything.
Please watch how everything changes.
Please let me just finished them off one by one.
The party which I always am alone.
But not for tonight anymore.
The bloody party is gonna rock.
Since I'm already malfunctioned.
The crimson stain isn't dirt.
Is something similar that mingle in my veins.
My life isn't sweet like a strawberry sundae.
Monday, August 06, 2007
~.++"Which" is Referring Me++.~
My name?
I didn't have one?
Maybe,
I didn't need one?
Why a name must be chosen?
Name...
Simply is just something I was born without.
Something which I can't see with my eyes.
Something which I believed I need it during important times.
But now,
I suppose everything happens at the wrong timing.
I lost it.
No doubt, I'm stopping right now.
Sunday, August 05, 2007
~.++Cries in the Shadow++.~
As nightfalls
When I couldn't see the brand new morning
My screams were endless in the eternity darkness
Soundless cries drives me insane
It's the time to come
Please kill me if you're able to save me
Before it eats up my conscious
Soon I won't be able to feel like what I was before
Cries in the shadow
Is like the silence when the horror creeps
Saturday, August 04, 2007
~.++Pathetique - ll - Adagio Cantabile++.~
He played Sonata in C Op.13 "Pathetique" by Beethoven
Every note he hits on the piano keys
As though ripples can be seen on the crystal clear water
Easy breeze blowing
For some reason
It was singing about the pathetic of everything
I couldn't help but tears was like a cup of overflowing water
How he felt was expressed without words
There he said softly
"Is a piece for you my dear
Please don't cry
I may or may not understand
So much for the desire to be free
So much for can't help feeling pathetic
At least I'm with you
Please remember me"
Friday, August 03, 2007
~.++Seconds Glitch++.~
Never did I realise...
Time does glitch...
Especially the gaps between the milliseconds.
Is too slow for me.
Thursday, August 02, 2007
~.++Simplicity Classical++.~
The simplicity of classical.
Where no notes are wasted.
The echoes of love and fun...
Keeps you refreshed and rejuvenated always.
I had wasted my days when I was a kid,
Now there's no more chance for me to chase my dream...
Be it a pianist or a violinist...
I was born wasted for not pursuing my dreams.
