Thursday, May 31, 2007
~.++Crowded++.~
I hate places crowded with rotten humans....
Filled with decaying awful odour....
Monday, May 28, 2007
~.++Know++.~
What do you know about me?
All you could say is that you understand!
Even I don't even know myself.
Just because I had your blood and I'm part of the family.
I felt nothing but just strangers.
That disgusting feeling and decaying trust, WHAT DO YOU UNDERSTAND?
我的存在多了一个人
我的灵魂不再是一面完美的镜子
Friday, May 25, 2007
~.++Your Majesty++.~
I want to be King.
No idea why but just want to keep winning.
Conquering and defeat anything that blocks me.
I'm not trying to be ambitious but I just like the feeling of everyone revolves around me.
I couldn't stop myself thinking of being a ruler and make everyone pays.
I'm not afraid to lose but I'm afraid I can't try my best conquering everything which I wished for.
Be it whether I want to be King.
Or whatever may it be that I might be God either King of Demons.
Rather than being a normal decaying homo sapiens and lead a normal life that couldn't excite me, I'd love to take control of whatever I could lay my hands on.
Perhaps soon I'm going crazy but I know I'm won't.
The feeling of being the one leading showed me the way to look forward for tomorrow.
I loved the feeling of destroying what's beautiful and what's not.
Doesn't mean I couldn't get it, I couldn't lay a finger on it.
If the opportunity comes, I'll shred it to pieces with joy.
Maybe today you can be friends with me but tomorrow the joy of killing you is what I can thought of.
My love to you is to destroy you.
So you can be with me forever.
I loathe to share. Really....
Saturday, May 12, 2007
~.++Underground LESSON H.E.L.L 2++.~
Qn: What would you do if suddenly someone said "I'm not going to talk to you"?
Ans: I'm fine with it, why not let's play this game forever. I mean who would want to talk to a moron?
Lies and truth. Which one would you choose? Lies are beautiful and truth hurts but that's reality. Would you really give a damn? In this harsh world, lies meant to protect oneself and truths meant to back stabbed. There you were confusingly thinking perhaps lies were the truth and vice versa.
If you think saying something but in fact doesn't meant anything. In this REAL world, it doesn't count whether you really meant it or not. There'll be people like me taking things seriously. Practice what you preach. What you said, you must be able to do it.
I had been lying every minute and every second and could you differentiate am I honest or am I a big fat liar? What counts is whether you know what you had said. Words can kill since it was made alive by us.
Thursday, May 03, 2007
~.++Underground LESSON H.E.L.L 1++.~
Qn: What's the first thing you want to do after you had a car?
Ans: Bang down someone who betray the meaning of loyalty and make sure he DIES.
The world turns clockwise but in reality it turns anti-clockwise. If you think being righteous is everything but in fact is a kind of "money" which buys what you need.
The Underground LESSON H.E.L.L 1:
Never pray to GOD, cause sometimes He turns his back against us. Anyway His neither superman nor work 24/7. He abide his own rule: Never serve the human beings.
Pray to the evil lords to fulfill your desires.
To do evil deeds doesn't mean you're evil, just merely protecting yourself.
This how the world goes round!
It doesn't pay to be kind but it pay to be realistic.
Humans were never compassionate from the day they were born.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
~.++Undone++.~
52 Hours ago I found strange changes in my body.
I thought I might not be able to live any much longer and broke into tears as fears creeps into my nerves.
I couldn't believe myself that no matter how much I had prepared for the arrival of death and in the end I still couldn't handle the truth.
After 14 hours of sleep and I woke up with a thought.
I asked is there any things that left undone if my lifespan left only less than a year?
I supposed none. I wondered had I prepared myself enough and get ready to go.
Till I realized the part I'm not satisfied about was...
I couldn't make her happy.
