Good evening, to the nocturnes, supposedly to be midnight now. Just these few hours ago, I had been having difficulties of breathing the air, just felt as though a sick person is trying his best to strangle me to death but couldn't finish me even he's at his full power of force. I hope that the surrounding air could be filtered as soon as possible. I just finished my another creative blog entry on the other blog, if you have the heart to search for it within this blog, I don't think it would be a difficult task. As you can see there's not many links in this blog either. This evening, I had a friend came to ask for my blog address on MSN, personally I felt quite delighted and real happy about it cause I'd found someone who really had thought of me. But I'm not trying to be rude, there could be another thinking is that, she wanted to make sure every link in her blog works. Or the other probability is that she suddenly thought of me and had the sudden urge of reading my blog entries cause she had nothing to do. If any of the above hits the nail, then please accept my sincere apology. I do respect all my friends (those who really thought of me even for just one second), that's why I wouldn't want to lose any. So far, I had lost quite a handful of them and from the beginning, I don't even have quite a number of good friends to begin with.

To my friend who asked for my blog web page, "Love you, muacks!", don't worry, even though I'm known bisexual, I won't attack you, cause I know you're straight! Just that, that is how I show my love to those who loved me. That should count as lucky, caused I'm not there to do anything like sexual harassment. Yesterday had a weird dream, I'd dreamed of spinning drum stick endlessly, not kind of weird but more of nightmare, as I thought, my fingers won't be able to stand spinning that stick continuously. However, I'd woke up and went to toilet to relieve myself! From there I know, I shouldn't had drank a cup of rose tea before I go to bed. Perhaps I'm nuts about my strange lifestyle. Most probably, if Ms.Jackfruit does read my blog entry, she would say "You had never been normal from the start!". Hmmm...... Recently, I'm craving for more and more bananas and banana milk tea. Though we lived in Singapore, of course we definitely would be able to eat bananas all year long unlike the cold countries like China, Japan, or USA. However not many of my family members loved bananas moreover it talks about milk, so basically, I felt bananas and milk, these two stuff starts to extinct from my life!

But I'm still able to get these supplies daily, provided I remind my mother before she's doing her shopping. However my mother would always come back with one bunch of bananas and the wrong type of milk. I prefer fresh milk to skim milk. Perhaps I prefer the thick consistency of fresh milk. Yesterday, I woke up quite early morning, having my cup of fresh milk as usual and I sat by the window watching the night sky slowly breaks into dawn and the sun rises which brightens up the sky. Birds chirping and flew over the sky in a flock. I had a thought, would it there be a day which I could truly find the freedom that I was searching for. Something like to be able to soar into the sky, and feeling light all over my body. Having an empty shell without burdens. However, I'd realized that could have been a silly thought, caused no matter how much freedom I was awarded, and no matter how strong my wings were, I'm still chained down heavily to this rotten world. Probably, one day I might just collapsed as my shoulder carried overweighted burdens. Things to consider, things to do, things to prioritize, so less time and by the time I'm ready to go for my journey, my time is up.