Yesterday was little Nigel's birthday party. I went to ECP in the end to meet up with Colin and Margaret. I get to know Herman who is a great humourous guy and Sharon who is a lady whom enjoyed wine, food and man. Not bad for the first time I get back to this circle of friends. We talked a lot before we set off to the party. Herman asked me what kind of guys am I going after? However I just said currently I am not interested in any guys and would rather spend my time now on my studies and build a strong foundation in my career which is in few years time. "Men", is a word I asked myself, what could I asked out from them? I don't fit to love, why do I have to seek for them. I made a vow, and I shall honour it.
I saw a lot friends and everyone said the same thing, "Hey, you slimmed down alot! Are you sick?" I don't know. Perhaps I am really sicked inside? Woooo, cancer ar? Choy choy choy, just kiddin'! I saw a lot people that I know, Serene, Zhi Wei, Daddy Alex, Kelvin, Ben, Elbriena, Xiao Zhu, Gregory, Marcus, Stara, Helen, Nicholas, Chuan, and him. Till now I still don't want to mention his name nor just speak out his name, and not even looked at him. I hate him? No. I am narrow minded? No. I just find it awkward. Perhaps I have yet fully letting go.
Why I can't let go even I have once possessed it? Why do I still have to yearn for it? Was it because that was greedy?
I had a great chat yesterday with Herman, Margaret, Pearline and Colin. It was liked an adult conversation, and yet I find it interesting cause everyone is sharing what they know, and each of us just have the click. It was great, we talked, we shared and I do find myself even more like an adult than before. I drank a bottle of beer yesterday during the chat, and got myself drunk cause I didn't eat anything to slow down that alcoholic entering my blood. Furthermore I even went to play with Nicholas at the swing, and it makes it even worse. However in the end, I'm alright still able to control and reached home safely. No hangovers when I woke up and I'm still able to blog here. Hmm, but at least now I know what should do and what shouldn't do if I wanto to drink. Well this time I am able to control even I knew I'm going to get myself drunk. Haha...
The whole night I have been saying, "Life is so short but yet so boring" and "I felt so old but yet so young", maybe some of us the youngsters might feel these now but when we get older, this kind of mindset will change. Because we will only know how short life can be when we're at the brink of death. We will say "Night is forever young" when we're getting older. Sheesh, in life there are so many contradictory stuff, and we're always unable to stick to 1, seems like everyone changes every minutes and every seconds.
